Hope
Where do we go when we die?
Do our actions reverberate in some space of eternal significance?
Can human history, this history of this world from start to today, be told as a part of a larger narrative? A coherent story?
Can cigarettes, red bull, Reuben sandwiches, television, symphonies, ipods, the internet and park benches, things, big and small, rather than being fragmented, can they have a context in life? Can each and every grain of sand and collosel mountain hold a place, a meaning, in the lives of people and in the story of our collective history?
No brain human brain is powerful enough to tell the story. Obviously. But is our own story worthy of telling even if we can’t make sense of it all and maybe we never will? What if the things, the details, stack so high we can never sort through them all like a load of laundry and place them folded in a drawer?
The question is, as confusing as it all is, should we still try? should we still ask the larger questions? Seek the proper narrative? Believe that the benevolent storyteller exists?
How utterly despairing would life be if it were all random? If it were all a big joke?
what if ‘coherency’ is a rumor? really, i heard it once.. in a story somewhere.. i think.. wait..
“No human brain is powerful enough to tell the story”
hm. and ‘worthy’?
just speculating.. but what if instead of ‘worth’ and ‘capability (brain or otherwise)’, we are really just pieces of this puzzle in time.. this God story..
no one person is supposed to get it on their own.. or live it alone. hmm, i think i read that somewhere too- Bible perhaps?
love ya, Matty!
ruby
May 29, 2008 at 3:36 am
I think science has proven that life is anything but “random.” Even the human cell is so intricate and complicated that it would be virtually impossible for it to be random.
Worthy? If life is not random, then it must have been purposefully created, and therefore “worthy.”
Is it so hard to conceive, then, that the creator of this purposeful life is also capable of an eternal love that is offered to you? A joke? I don’t think so.
Sandy
May 30, 2008 at 3:51 am
Oh, and I love you too! Sandy
Sandy
May 30, 2008 at 3:52 am
Matt,
here is something that was written in the diaries of Franz Kafka,
“It is easy to recognize a concentration in me of all my forces on writing. When it became clear in my organism that writing was the most productive direction for my being to take, everything rushed in that direction and left empty all those abilities which were directed toward the joys of sex, eating, drinking, philosophical reflection and above all music … Naturally, I did not find this purpose independently and consciously, it found itself, and is now interfered with only by the office, but that interferes with it completely … My development is now complete and, so far as I can see, there is nothing left to sacrifice; I need only throw my work in the office out of this complex in order to begin my real life.”
I pray something like this happens to you. You really should make sure whatever it is you choose to study at American, that it affords you the time and inspiration for your gift as a writer.
peace love
Miguel
Miguel
June 1, 2008 at 5:43 pm
I recently read about 5 steps to happiness:
1. Free your heart from hatred (forgive)
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have
4. Give more
5. Expect less
Your thoughts are deep Matt and you have a great way with words. Use your gift to enjoy life!
Susan
June 2, 2008 at 12:10 am